WHAT’S UP! It’s Ciara :)
Here’s some real talk - I literally have so much on mind at all times that I often have a hard time sharing all these things verbally and/or writing things out. I feel I’ve been mentally writing this blog for a couple weeks now and I still can’t decide on one topic. So - here’s a compilation of all the things that I’ve been thinking about and want to share with you, my inner circle. For friends who know me - I’m sure none of this will come as a surprise. For you new friends or soon to be friends - welcome to my life. I’m so happy you’re here.
Fun fact about me: I get easily distracted. Like hella easily distracted. If we’re spending time together - I am all yours and chances are I’m listening - it’s just that I remembered something or saw something amazing. Trust me though - the fact that you’re taking time out of your day or night to spend time with ME - literally means the world to me. This makes all the sense. My top love language is: Quality Time. What’s yours? Clickity here to find out: Love Language
Words of Affirmation
Acts of Service
*This is also a big reason of why I LOVE the inner circle. Spending time with all of you in person, facetime, zoom, phone, etc. etc. - that is EVERYTHING to me.
Fun fact(s) about me: I’m obnoxious, typically hyper, will make you genuinely smile/laugh, and I don’t embarrass easily. The other day I was with my cousin Tatiana Delima - check out her dope af photo skills/video skills/life skills - and I wanted to do a boomerang in front of the Newbo Market in Cedar Rapids, IA. Well...you can’t just often take ONE boomerang... so we took 3. Maybe you remember seeing it on our insta story? At the end of the first boomerang - I noticed a few construction workers and pedestrians kind of laughing and pointing. My response? I took 2 more boomerangs. Here’s the thing too - I don’t feel that they were making fun of me - I feel as if they were uncomfortable with me living so freely and doing whatever I want. My next thought to this? YOOO - go out there and live like that too. Why do we spend time being embarrassed for who we are? Hypocrite moment - SHE LIES - because I too was embarrassed of a few things about myself too. I’m not anymore. I’m proud of who I am. I surround myself with people who accept me for who I am. I set that standard with the people I choose to be present in my life. And I refuse to be hushed by embarrassment.
So - when you out there and vibes are good, energy is contagious, you feelin yourself, you feelin any type of way, you celebrating, ANYTHING - do it as big or as little as you want. Want a pic? Take more than one. Hungry? Go out to eat by yourself - you’re amazing company. The last place I ate solo was at The Waveland. Let’s go sometime? ANYWAYZ - be you - because no one else can do it better.
* I recently turned 30 and you bet your asses I was as extra as you thought I would be. Years ago - I would’ve been embarrassed to share I was turning 30. Now - hell yah - my life has been amazing. I cannot wait to see what I have in store for myself in this new decade.
Fun Fact: I cry a lot. Here’s what’s up with this one - I have become more aware of the energy I put out, my feelings, and where and/or who I spend my time with. Essentially, I’ve gotten picky. This is where BE SELFISH WITH YOUR ENERGY comes from. I was tired of feeling tired, sad, and defeated. I cut things that felt like obligations instead of fun out of my life. I stopped talking and associating with people that made me feel like shit. After all this - I am excited to spend my time and energy on the groups-committees-activities that I’m part of. I adore every interaction with friends. I am becoming comfortable saying no. And the universe is introducing me to the best people. Someone in our circle sent me a meme that said: STOP SAYING YES TO SHIT YOU DON’T LIKE. Exactly. Be selfish with your energy, friends. It’s literally treasure. Don’t spread yourself thin to please others. Say yes to what feels right to you and what you want to do. Take breaks - even though I’m selfish with my energy - I often have packed weeks and weekends. I don’t regret it - I also just need to give myself time to myself to recharge. Back to the crying - I think this transformation of mindset and energy has literally made me so emotional. I dig it. Crying doesn’t have to be a bad thing - it’s a great way for me to release things i’m feeling - happy or sad. Where my cryers at? (Instant movie cryer: COCO)
Alright - summary. Spending time with all of you is my jam, I will live my life and not spend time being embarrassed, and I cry a lot because becoming selfish with my energy is giving me so much great in my life. Let me know if you relate to any of this!
Love you all - Ciara